Im feeling down now... i donno why i feels diz way... i miss all those day....the tyme i just noe him.. but now seem to be change..i donno y... y people cant accept me seadanye...cant understand me...cant understand wat i want... he seem like putting blame on me....he ask me to change...die suruh aku berubah... berubah dengan perangai aku yang suke diam kan diri wen i have a problem... aku ade problem kadang2 becoz of him but i juz kept quiet n keep to myself coz i dont want to hurt him... die buat aku sakit hati, aku diam...sbab, aku tak nk die pulak yang sakit hati, kecik ati... to me is better im kept quiet den i burst it out... aku malas nk bertekak...im tired!!! Bile aku diam, he start to say "i taknk gadoh ngn u"...tak nk gadoh?? sape pulak yang nk gadoh....aku diam je pon salah? nk gadoh? die tak penah nk paham aku...he cant really understand me...tapi bile aku cakap die tak paham aku...die tak terima... so ape lagi aku ley buat..diam je la yang aku mampu.. Semalam yang betul2 buat aku sedey n kecewe die mati2 suruh aku berubah...n he say "i tak suke ngn perangai u! i nk u berubah" die cakap mcm 2....mcm perangai aku ni buruk sangat...mcm aku ni kaki jantan,kaki club etc... and i can feels dat he will be giving up on me... haiz.. i juz can pray wat its good for me....ape2 yang akan berlaku..aku hanya pasrah saje...haiz
