hello everybody, haiz...im not werkin today.... Im really no mood since yesterday when i see sumthing dats not rite.... And i cant really sleep n thinking of him the whole nite.... Dat why diz morning i feel headache when woke up diz morning....
After i see dat, im really crying....aku betul betul mcm kecewa...sedey... aku tak kesah kalau he hav another gerl but den he never tell me dat he hav already going on wif her....selame ni wat he do he tell me....tapi sekarang kenape mesti akan berubah.... i can feel dat our frenship wil be end soon although he alwayz tell me no matter wat we will alwayz be fren but i cant feels dat is kenyataan....i cant stop crying thinkin of diz things....and i cant accept it how dat gerl get to noe him....
Diz morning, he called me, i tell him dat im on mc....he pitty of me...i tell him dat im stress.... And he said "macam mane tak stress ade org rindu"....he ask me to tell him wat happen actually....thnx for your care....i tell him wat happen but im really sory i lied to him.... im realy realy sori.....i dont mean to lied....but i have to....i cant terus terang kat u...sorry... aku cume tak nk die pikir aku ni pompan perasan tak tau malu....biar la aku tipu dan aku tak nk die tahu kesedihan aku selame ni.....im juz want him to noe dat im happy here but den sebaliknye... the werd dat really hurt me dat he say "im the specials fren" memang pelik kalau aku ckp aku ni sakit hati bila dengar die ckp gitu...tapi dipikirkan balik ape yang aku nmpak semua i dont believe it....wat so special about me??? dan aku tak tau die ckp tu hanye dari bibir atau hati....when die cakap gitu airmate aku melilir.....
I admit i have feels toward him sejak kebelakangan ni...but im confused.... But why im feels broken when saw all diz things.... all my fren ask me to tell him the truth about my feeling toward him... But i cant, i dont wan, siapa la aku ni, aku ni kan pompan... i got face ok! Somemore mayb im not his type... Lelaki sekarang tengok rupa dulu.....Wat ever la.... Biarlah aku tanggung ni semua, biar aku menangissorang.... Bagi aku, biar la kite ni kawan itu yang lebih baik....
To HIM:i hope u read diz, and im really sorry yang i terpakse tipu u ape yang i ckp tad semua tak betol i cume tak nk u tahu yang i sedey i juz want u to noe dat im happy here...
im also sori bile u ajak jumpa i banyak kasi alasan....biarlah kite macam ni je la.....da cukup bagi i....terima kasih kerana sudi menjad teman mistery i.....terima kasih jugak kerana telah mengisi mase kosong i selame ni and make me smile everyday dan nie semua hanya sementara.....dan i rase all will be change mengikut mase yang berganti....
im also sory coz im got feel towards u.....im really miss those tyme..... mungkin ni pun silap i sebab ade hati kat u.....maafkan i... i paham, kite ni da nk dekat setahun kite kawan tak kan semua u nk blang i.....tapi i tak kesah if u dont want to tell me....kalau ape yang i sangka selame ni betul, yang u already going on wif her, maafkan i, i terpakse undur diri walaupun berat sebab i sayang our frenship.....i hope u understand wat i said if u in my shoes....i really hope u can tell me ape da jad....Maafkan i sekali lagi.......hope u will be happy....takecare my dear fren!!!
